Stop getting into this mud. It destroys your relationship with your wife, your enjoyment, your closeness.
It is like not only betraying her but also betraying yourself.
IT is like playing in filth and mud, it puts great toll in your mind that does not allow you to focus on your love, on your like, on your spiritual growth.
Stop drinking this salty dirt that never makes you less thirsty.
You promised yourself and your love to stop watching it. To stop thinking about it. and to stop talking about it.