Letter to myself:

I’m scared you’re going to screw up again. I’m scared that this is going to be another try and another fail. What it comes down to is I’m scared that you can’t do it. Or even worse- I’m scared that you don’t want to do it. Please want it. Please. You can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens you. With Jesus on your side, you can do ANYTHING. Even defeat this 12 year battle with porn. I’m praying so hard for this to be over.

Letter from my sex addict:

I want it. I want to be done with this temptation. I don’t think I can do it. Let’s be honest, my track record isn’t great. But I know that God can do it. And I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Prayers needed. I’m also ashamed beyond belief. So ashamed that I don’t think the Lord wants me anymore. I know that’s not true, but it’s hard not to feel that way. The Lord is my strength, and I believe that I can conquer this with His help.