You guys rock. What a brave ministry… I heard of you when you visited Westwinds Church in Jackson & then ran into you again on Myspace.
I’m 43 years old and have been in bondage to porn since I was 14 or so. I had all the normal porn stash… tapes, books, gig’s of stuff hidden on my computer. Even though I was a dedicated/sold out Christian since a 17 years old – porn still owned me. I’d masterbate 1-4 times a day and couldn’t break the habit regardless of prayer, fasting, determination. The best I ever did was maybe a week. It made me feel terrible and hindered my relationship with God and eventually I just gave up.
Anywhoo… fast forward to 40 years old… wife of 18 years decided to leave for another, broken hearted I turned back to God. After several months of crying & hurting, I finally decided to give it ALL to God… including things that I held him from like my love life. I just didn’t trust him quite enough to give that to him. At the time of this final surrender I didn’t even notice a change, it was just like any other day.
Two weeks later a Christian friend asked me how I was doing against porn… I was stunned! Two weeks had passed and I had not given porn a second thought! How could that happen? It hadn’t happened in the 27 years prior. Well, now it’s been 1 1/2 years FREE. (well let’s say 99.9% free, I’ve had a few bad moments – but rare)
It’s all so cool – me thinks surrender is the way! It’s not struggle, fight, determination… it’s giving it all to God and He oes the rest!