Who were you today? Who were you on Sunday? Who are you going to be tonight? Those questions may sound a little crazy but in reality they are quite eye opening. For instance, Sunday is one of the craziest days of the week. Especially Sunday morning, getting the kids up and ready for church, they start fighting, you are irritable because you can’t find your shoes and your wife is upset because her hair just won’t do what she wants it to do. You finally get the family loaded in the car go a few blocks and realize you left the babies diaper bag sitting on the counter. About this time you and your wife are arguing over who forgot it. The baby is now screaming and the other two kids are fighting over a toy. Fifteen minutes and several cuss words later you pull into the church parking lot. Just as soon as you kill the engine… BOOM!! A happy family. From that point on the life is good routine begins.
Who were you today? I am assuming most of you went to work and put on your “life is good” face. Having your co-worker envy you for what you make them believe is a wonderful life. When in reality you are tormented knowing the person you will turn into tonight when the family goes to bed. Who is that going to be? Are you going to be the man who gets online and searches the internet for some casual encounter with a stranger or strangers? Are you going to search for big boobed blondes getting gang banged? I hate to go here but are you going to search for child porn? Is this the real you? I don’t believe it is. Every man I have who I have talked with about their addiction to porn has said at some point and time “that is not me!” “I don’t know what I was doing or thinking”. Many times after a night or day of accessing porn our conscience is plagued with thoughts of our dark life.
There is hope in Jesus. He has already paid the price for our sins. All we have to do is confess. If you are living a double life Christ calls us to give it up and come to him. The Lord is ready to help us with our dual personalities. It says in Pslam
“Teach me your ways, O Lord, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name”
I pray that your Jekyll and Hyde lifestyle will change into a life of your own in Christ.