We have heard stories of coming out of porn addiction and the “industry” before. Each seeming to be more shocking than the last.
However, we rarely hear the stories of those from behind the camera. The producers, directors, and even the “fluffers” are just as involved in the singul nature of the business as anyone else. When I saw this article from the PinkCrossFoundation on Christopher Gregory, my interest was peaked.
Christopher started in the porn industry after meeting a friend who was involved with Girls Gone Wild. He thought it would be a great way of making money and getting women, however as we know, the life could not be sustained and he admitted it was a subtle slide down into darkness and sin.
Here is an excerpt from the interview he did with Shelley Lubben of Pink Cross:
Shelley: Did things that happened in your childhood have an influence on your choice to be a porn producer?
Christopher: Did things happen in my childhood affect my decision? Yes, only in the respect that I was in my early 20’s when my father died, I grew up in a traditional Christian home, actually, I got saved when I was 8 years old, but when I became older, after the loss of my dad, I grew angry and as most angry young men, I took off and found myself doing whatever I could to fill that void in my life. I thought everything and everyone was against me, even God, in my mind, left me. So as I grew older and travelled more and experienced more, it opened the door to the film industry and eventually leading me to Larry Flynt’s door.
Shelley: How long were you in the porn business?
Christopher: I was in the business for a very short time, almost 5 years (that’s short) compared to many. Again, to me it was a way to make money, build my name and then crossover. 20 Years ago that would have virtually impossible, but because Hollywood has virtually become an industry of virtually no morals, I was introduced to many people who worked part time (under assumed names) in the porn business as either camera guys, writers, or directors or producers and still worked during the day on mainstream industry films.
Shelley: What is your worst memory?
Christopher: My worst memory was on the set of a Hustler film, I was shooting on location and the drug use was rampant with the talent, yet I was told to get it finished (it was a 5 days shoot) any which way I had to. If anybody tells you the porn industry does not endorse drug use is a liar. I’ve had my fair share of working with girls who worked with every top studio from Wicked to Hustler to Vivid and it was commonplace to make sure the girl(s) were ready, even if that meant drunk (alcohol was always provided and actually I was told when I first started working for Hustler, to provide alcohol on set, because it loosened up the people involved. Crazy.
Shelley: Were any of the women ever coerced or forced into doing sex acts they weren’t comfortable with?
Christopher: All the time. You have to remember, in the studios eyes women are nothing but meat. They are literally slaves, with the illusion of fame and fortune, but take it from me, they are not free moral agents in most circumstances, they are guided by habits, physical violence at home, or they are struggling to make payments on a mortgage. Nobody goes into this business for the “fun” of it.
Shelley: Are people in porn able to have loving relationships, marriages?
Christopher: No. It is impossible to separate the two for they are one and the same. Sooner or later that world, just like every other aspect of Hollywood, seeps into the private lives of those involved and the casualties are piling up. When I came into the business, I worked with a producer who was married and the marriage practically ended up in ruins. The most foolish thing one can say is that it doesn’t affect one’s life, but it does. I’ve known many who allowed their wives to act or do sex scenes with other men – or women, then they have a private affair and the man goes nuts -why? You weren’t so concerned when she was having sex with another man on set? The justification in the mind simply doesn’t make sense. The price for sin has always been an expensive one.
Shelley: How did you get out of porn? Who saved or helped you?
Christopher: I had a praying mom. I was in Los Angeles for a week, I was to meet execs from Vivid and then to meet execs from a mainstream studio, things were changing with me and I was barely holding on to my seat. That evening I was looking out my hotel room window, I watched the planes coming into LAX, they all lined up, and I thought, “They know where they’re going” but I didn’t. It wasn’t until a few nights later, I went to sleep one night, and I had just got a call from a certain friend (Pauly Shore) and all I can explain is that I went to sleep and suddenly had a vision. I saw myself standing by the side of the road, it was raining and I saw my body lying in the street under a crumbled car, I was obviously in a car crash and I knew I didn’t survive. I turned to the right and a black hole suddenly appeared out of nowhere as I found myself being pulled into it. I took one last look back, to catch a glimpse and there was one desire, if I could I would have fought to stay there, but the blackness over took me and I found myself moving deeper into what seemed like a tunnel of rock as I went further down, deep into the caverns and I knew within my spirit I was going to hell. The next thing I knew I was standing in an open space where I saw three holding cells, they were cubicle in design, but formed out of the earth and rock, and I knew that one of them was where I was going to be placed. I stood and contemplated my life and I knew that I would never come out of this place, this horrible place and more importantly, I would never hear my mom pray for me again – I was lost, without hope, without grace without Christ. Then suddenly, I was thrown back into the light and I woke up. I found myself in my bed, but my bed was literally covered in sweat, I had soaked my bed!
It was weeks later that I was driving back home, when I could literally hear God speak to my heart and he told me he was giving me a chance to make things right. Then one particular afternoon, I felt God convict my heart and I knew God was dealing with me to come home. I fought it at first, but then I simply asked Christ into my life and suddenly I knew, God loved me! Christ came into my life, forgave me of every wrong I ever did, he saved me from sin, death and hell. I cried all night practically, but I was overjoyed because I gave my life to Jesus Christ and he loved me enough that he saved me! Everything was gone, the sin, the guilt, the hate, the anger, everything, it was all gone the minute I accepted Christ into my life.
Since then I am preaching the gospel of Jesus Christ, a restored man who is new in Christ and telling the world that there is second chances – I’m living proof.