Great men of God!
I have been on vacation so please excuse my lack of posts the past couple of weeks. I then passed a milestone in life as we took our daughter to college this past weekend…it was and still is a very emotional time for me.
There was sadness for a couple of reasons. First, my daughter is gone…her room is here but no one is in it…I stand in it and I remember…which brings me a sense of greater loss, the loss of time. I traded a large portion of her life for sexual addiction. I traded the real joy of life for the lie that I would find happiness. I traded the ability to serve my family for the selfishness of addiction…I feel a great sense of loss.
I found happiness in this difficult moment, in this moment which challenged me to grow. I found happiness in the comfort of a God of miracles. Many said my marriage could not be saved, simply too much damage. I could have just given up on my marriage, divorced and then tried again…but nothing is impossible for God. I could have missed a mother and a father driving their daughter to college, I could have missed as we hung pictures in her room, set up her desk…I could have missed these 4 simple words…I love you daddy!!
If you are in this addiction, if you keep trying to say no and you can’t, what are you trading? A marriage, time with your family time with God? You are trading something and I can assure you there will come a time when you will know the answer.
There is help here on this site. On this last post (and many others) I watched as many of you traded comments towards helping each other…The honesty posted here is how we help each other…the friendships I have formed with some of you here and the men in my groups are what keep me sober, they are another place where I find happiness…another way that I forget the past and learn to enjoy this great gift which God has given me.
Find a church which is willing to talk about pornography…find a church which is willing to support a group of honest men willing to talk about their weaknesses…God will be there and you will begin to live a full life and not a life filled with regrets…We must believe that God will go before you and prepare the way for this new group.
[ God’s Angel to Prepare the Way ] “See, I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared.