You ever have that type of day when everything you hear somehow relates to what you’re feeling inside? Even the lame song at the grocery store somehow has a line that pops out at you and makes you think, “Ok, I get it!!!” The problem with me is I tend to be a little dense at times and it takes a lot to get me to listen or to realize that God is using anything possible to get me to listen to Him.
I got on facebook this morning and a friend of mine had this as his status; “I’ve realized that its times like these when silence means everything. Sometimes God is waiting for you to turn off all the noise…..”
“Be still, and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10 (ESV)
I have this verse on a plaque in my house and it’s displayed in a manner where you can’t miss it but me being as dense as I am I never see it. Well let me re-state that I see it but I don’t pay attention to it.
I have all these warning signs going of in my life that are telling me that my old behaviors are starting to resurface and I am on a slippery surface about to fall. The problem is that I won’t shut-up and listen because I think I have everything under control.
We admitted we were powerless over our sins. That our lives had become unmanageable.
“For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out.” Romans 7:18 (ESV)
I know that as a porn addict I have to pay attention to the warning signs going off in my life or else I will find myself giving into the temptation to act out. Porn and masturbation are always my form of escape from stress and the problems of life. The problem is that because of my relationship with Jesus Christ and now knowing the truth I know that acting out in these behaviors will lead me down a pathway of destruction. I have a conscious now it’s called the Holy Spirit and maybe it’s time that I finally shut up and listen to Him.
“When you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and believed in him, were sealed with the promised Holy Spirit…” Ephesians 1:13 (ESV)