Do you know I’ve been putting off writing this blog all week?
It’s not that I don’t have love for you guys. It’s just that I’ve got so much on my plate right now that taking on one more project/assignment feels like overeating. And we know that gluttony is one of the seven, deadly sins…
At least that is how I’ve been rationalizing my procrastination.
As a matter of fact, right now, my clock says 12:22 (AM, mind you) and I would love nothing more than to turn off this PC and lay it down in my bed. But, the truth is that tomorrow—well later today—will greet me with a 9am interview and oh, about five writing deadlines. So, since it’s Friday and I’m a Sabbath observer, if I don’t get it in now, it just won’t happen.
Remember how I mentioned, I think in my first blog, that my definition of deliverance is just operating in foresight? Tonight is a good example of what I’m talking about. The truth is, right now, I don’t feel like penning this quickie narrative, but if I waited until I did, with the way I feel right now, it might not ever get done.
So, where am I going with this? Just what is my point? Well, I’m hoping that delirium has not set in yet so that I can make it, which is, when it comes to the quest for living a life of sexual purity, if you’re looking for your feelings to keep you motivated and inspired, you can just throw the towel, bed sheet, and your personal self-worth in now.
Feelings are some of the most fickle things when it comes to reliability. Like a spoiled child, it often doesn’t care about anything other than what it wants RIGHT NOW and what needs to be done to fulfill that need. Do you think a three-year-old child really cares about the cavities he may get at 12 because of all of the candy he’s whining about not getting to eat? Nope. All he knows is that he wants it because it tastes good and so that’s enough of a reason to have it.
It takes a mature overseer to say, “No, that’s not a good idea right now”; someone who has the patience and wisdom to realize that always giving in to your desires often equates not being ultimately satisfied because as Jeremiah 17:9 tells us, “the heart is wicked and deceiftul”. One day…no, one hour, it may want one thing and the next moment, it will want something else without giving much thought to the consequences either way.
So, if you’re sitting in front of the computer and you’re tempted to go to a fetish site, or if your cell phone is by your bed and you feel like you’ve just gotta call up that ex for a late night visit, just look at it like a future cavity that you really should try to avoid.
Not because you “feel” like it, but because it’s better for your health—mind, body and spirit. Take it from someone who knows. Your “feelings” may not thank you now, but the rest of you will certainly be grateful later.
Whew…good night. 🙂