The wrong path turned right

I started masturbating when I was 5 yrs. old. Now some people might not understand how that is possible, but I was a victim of sexual abuse from a young age and it was most definitely a learned behaviour. So too was looking at porn when I discovered what that was. I first started watching porn with a buddy of mine at 11 yrs old. From there things spiraled out of control. The addiction to porn was no longer satisfying me so the need for real sex took over. I started sleep around and soon was sleeping with just about every girl who would jump into bed with me. I lost count a long time ago, but the problem remains that it didn't slow down. I got married when I was 21 and continued the behaviour of sleeping around, watching porn, and masturbating. This eventually ended my marriage as I cheated on my wife more than 15 times with 7 different women. It doesn't stop there...in fact that's the light stuff. I continued on in my ways, thinking it wasn't a problem yet feeling a deep pull inside that it was. A few months ago, I had a business, I got my son 3 days a week, and I was happy or so I thought, in life. That's when I started dating a 17 yr old. In Canada the legal age of consent in Ontario is 16 so legally this wasn't wrong...however, her father, a police officer, found out that her and I were sleeping together and worked to have me arrested, claiming that I had been a coach of hers during ball hockey season, this was never the case, but the charges we laid and I went to jail. I was charged with Sexual Exploitation. And spent 2 months in jail before being bailed out, which was a HUGE MIRACLE from the Father, and let to regain a life while court was still going on. The truth is, without this moment in life I never would have known how serious my problem was. I gave my life over to Christ and am now living a life for God. I still struggle at times, and I have fallen, but thank Jesus that I have a loving saviour. I am still going through court over all this, but I am confident that God has a plan for my life and isn't going to let me fall. He has been blessing me hugely, and I have all confidence that the lord is leading me where he wants me. I have even touched on the subject of becoming a pastor. I hope this confession helps someone, because it's not easy to admit just how far we can fall with sexual sin. GOD BLESS

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