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By User Submitted on Feb 04, 10 at 09:06 PM | | Comments (2)

I am a pastor. I have been one for about 10 years. Before I was a Christian pornography was part of my life. However, it went away as my walk got more serious. Recently, I have given into temptation. I don't know why or where it came from. This junk is invading my mind. It seeks to destroy my life and the life of my family. I confess that I am a sinner. I don't have anyone to talk to about it. I feel very alone. I don't want this stuff to be a part of my life. It will destroy my calling, my marriage, and it will be passed down generationally in some way to my child. I am hurting. I confess to someone that I am a sinner and need prayer. I want to be free.

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expitdweller wrote on February 05, 2010 at 05:07 AM

satan is not creative, he was created fell from grace through pride and has been tempting mankind ever since.
satan knows your weakness, he knows your trigger points, and is playing with you. he hates you and all ministers and would love a big whole in the lives of your family, and church, community and the entire body of Christ. It affects us all when one falls, this draw is familiar to me and many of us, there are days when its completely gone. Then it's back full force?????
You feel isolated, like no one can know, and most pastors don't feel this way. [ lie ] You are not alone, we will over come. we tend to sit and think a lot, our mind wanders, a little pressure from below a throb, boner and we are into a full fledge position to click and see. some of us it's comparison, others its position and young bodies. It draws our attention backward toward our youth, so we can fantasize about that for hours, remember when, i did that, or could do that. most all us guys, feel like we were a porn star at some time or another.
its self defeating and careless. we are taken here by our own ungodly desires, and that feeling of control, we take the reigns, like a cowboy on a horse heading west. freedom! we think throw caution to the wind and be a stud, the problem is its a screen and we are viewing fake made up people, its not reality. we stay in it, until we decide to end it by one final load blown. and we come away feeling worse than we did before. we gave in, for what. a rush feeling a tingle and a couple involuntary muscle contractions.
then we have to cover our tracks, make excuses...
Get rid of it, if you were are drunk you wouldn't leave a bottle of grey goose in the house, office, where ever. you'd be proactive and break contact and think about those trigger points, tried, lonely, sad.. things not coming together as planned, or as quickly as you'd like them to.
You will get through this, temptation will come. with this addiction, we must also take a stand to be[ over cum ] give it no place to drive you, your wife needs you whole. save the goods for her.
keep up the good fight of faith.

Oliver wrote on February 05, 2010 at 08:50 AM

This verse and others like it were necessary for me to overcome my addiction:

Walk in the Spirit and you will not fulfill the lust of the flesh (Gal. 5:16).

There are specific things one has to do to get free.

Victory in Jesus

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