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I am 36 and single, but now in a beginning relationship with a man. I have been in one longer relstionship before. I've never had sexual intercourse, but have engaged in other sex activities with these two men. The one I'm seeing now is a very open man when it comes to sex, and I know we have an intense attraction towards each other in this way. He really turns me on, and it's mutual. We have sometimes engaged in phone sex too. I have decided I want to back off on the sex part, bc I want to do it God's way - and wait with sex - even though it will be hard... This man is also a chrisitian, and understands and agrees.

My recurring problem is a desire to read erotic short stories online. I'm turned on by pornographic stories about women being forced into sex and liking it. I never watch pics, just read short stories. I cannot use addiction as an excuse. I am capapble of saying no, but when I want sex, it's not easy to stop, and I choose to do it anyway.

I am active in a church and really am serious about my faith. This is a sin I've never spoke about to anyone. Please pray for me to look to God and His ways, and give up my flesh. I want to wait until I'm married, and I still don't know if this guy I'm seeing will be my husband. He is a great guy, but he isn't sure that he has enough ' feelings' for me. Even though we have an amazing friendship and amazing sexual attraction... But that's anoother story... Thanks for reading my story. I'm happy to get input and possible advice and help.

Lara

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