Letter to myself:
Dear Porn Addict,
I can’t even begin to tell you how I feel. You have broken my heart so many time. Lied to my face. Destroyed my marriage, and any feeling that I have left. The sick part is I let you. I cooperated with you, I helped you to destroy everything that God has blessed me with. I allowed you into my life, to wreak havoc and destroy everything. You have destroyed my self-esteem, my self-worth, my relationship with God and everything I love. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. But, really you have caused me to hate myself. I know this was your plan all along. I know that you cannot stand to be my life prosperous and blessed. I know that every time there has been victory in my life, you come in like a flood to wash it all away. You don’t allow me to feel good about myself, you don’t allow me to be happy. You just want to destroy my life and the sick part is I have let you. I really thought you would go away when I got married. That I would know and understand closeness and love like I have never known. That my wife would be all that I needed. But, that was just another lie. You have never wanted me to be close to anyone, in fact you have destroyed every relationship I have been in. I have lost jobs because of you, family members and friends. You have always wanted me to compare myself with everyone else and make me believe that I was not enough for anyone and as a result I became jealous and could not see or appreciate who God made me, how God made me, and you made me feel that I was never good enough. Never enough for anyone even God. You made me believe that there was something wrong with me. That no matter what I did nothing was ever good enough. For you the truth is NOTHING IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH!!! You always want more, more of my time and my health and my attention and more of my thoughts. You accomplished your purpose and now because I have nothing left I have learned something. That YOU are not enough!!! YOU HAVE NEVER SATISFIED ME!!! YOU HAVE NEVER FILLED THAT VOID that I have tried to fill with you. The TRUTH is that you CAN”T!!! YOU ARE A LIAR!!! YOU CAN NOT DO WHAT YOU PROMISE!!! YOU HAVE FAILED ME!!! YOU HAVE FAILED ME!!!! YOU ALWAYS FAIL ME!!!! I HATE YOU!!! I HATE YOU!!! I HATE YOU!!! I am glad you have been exposed and found out to be the fraud that you are. I am thankful for the hell you have put me through, the torment and the pain BECAUSE NOW I CAN SEE THE TRUTH!!!! YOU DON’T LOVE ME!!! YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED ME DESTROYED!!!! YOU NEVER CARED ABOUT ME!!!! I WAS AN OBJECT FOR YOU TO USE ANOTHER STATISTIC!!! YOU ARE THE LIAR NOT ME!!! YOU ARE THE MONSTER!!!! YOU ARE THE DECEIVER AND I HATE YOU.
With all that said, this is my final goodbye. This is the purpose of this letter. I AM SAYING GOODBYE TO YOU FOREVER!!!!
I have believed your lies for too long.
As a result, I am changing from this day forward to “Acquaint myself with God and what He says about me. To line up my thinking to HIS WORD AND BELIEVE what HE says about me!!! THE TRUTH IS:
1. God has always loved me and has an amazing plan for my life!!!
2. His purposes for me have not been destroyed thwarted or changed!!!
3. He choose me before the foundations of this world, I AM HIS CREATION made PERFECT!!!
4. The TRUTH IS: GOD IS LOVE PURE LOVE HE LOVES ME HE WOULD NEVER USE ME!!!
5. MY WIFE DESERVES BETTER!!! SHE DESERVES TO BE LOVED AND SECURE AND TREASURED AND ADORED!!!
6. MY KIDS NEED THEIR DAD TO GUIDE THEM AND LEAD THEM IN THE WAYS OF THE LORD!!!
7. GOD HAS NEVER FAILED ME!!! GOD WILL NEVER FAIL ME OR FORSAKE ME OR LEAVE ME FILLING EMPTY!!!
8. GOD’S PLAN FOR ME IS FOR GOOD AND NOT EVIL! HIS PLAN FOR ME IS TO PROSPER AND SUCCEED AND GIVE HIM ALL THE GLORY!!!
9. GOD MADE ME TO BE A WORSHIPER OF HIM AND NOT OF MYSELF!!!
10. MY LIFE IS WORTH SAVING!!! MY STORY IS WORTH SHARING!!! MY FAMILY NEED THEIR DADDY AND MY WIFE NEEDS HER HUSBAND.
Below is my plan of action for the next 90 days:
1. To read my Bible every day and to meditate of scripture.
2. Commit myself to PRAY and FAST!!! (Twice a week for the next 4 weeks)
(One day for my inner healing and the second for my wife’s)!!!
3. TO GUARD MY EYES! I WILL FAST FROM ANY MOVIES OR TV SHOWS FOR THE NEXT 30 DAYS!!!
4. To go to bed at a decent hour (Every night). Not stay up by myself.
5. TO complete the X3 PURE CLASS WORKSHOP in the next 30 days!
6. Also, to have The Full subscriptions to X3 Watch installed on my phone and my laptop.
Never yours again,
God’s Beloved, Dustin A. Gano
Letter from my sex addict:
You play the victim but you know that there’s nothing you want more than me. You say you love God and love your wife but when your alone who is always there for you. Your wife has rejected you so many times btw that was me at work. But, I have been your faithful companion. I have ALWAYS been there for you. Yeah, we have had our fight and I love when you tell other people how to live a holy life but you. Maybe you should take your own medicine. You are a liar and a hypocrite. YOu sing all the time about how much you love God in front of all those people at church but “If you loved Him would you be with me? would you be caressing me and keeping me safe from others.” The Truth is you don’t love God! You don’t even know Him. How many times have you prayed and God did not answer you? How many times has God let you down. How many hurtful things in life must you go through to know that God is not there. The truth is God is not your source I am. The truth is God is not your shelter I am. The real TRUTH is I AM YOUR GOD!!! You worship me, You obey me and you adore me! You are mine and I will never let you go. Don’t try to escape btw: Have you ever finished anything? No you are going to be all excited about it in the first week and then YOU WILL NOT FINISH THIS!!! You will always be mine. I will always be there. I know you better than anyone else. I know the REAL YOU!!! You will always come back to me. Just remember when your wife leaves you and takes your kids that she didn’t love you anyway. She doesn’t accept you. She doesn’t care about you. She has never really cared about you. You were just a sympathy case that she thought she could cure. You were like some stray on the road that she thought was wounded. But, I have plan for her too. She’s already threatened to leave or divorce you. This is my plan for your wife.
1. She will divorce you and because she doesn’t know her worth anymore she will fall into relationship after relationship. She will eventually jut give herself to some guy that will lie and misuse and abuse her. She will become a workaholic and endure the abuse because you have showed her that she is worthless. That she is not enough . That she is not enough for you. (That was all me btw)
2. Your kids will despise their pervert of a dad, who by then will be living with your partner thinking that your happy all the while I will confuse you little boy to think that there must’ve been something wrong with him that his Dad would leave him and he will look for love just like you did He will look to older men looking for a father figure and then He will be hurt y some guy just like you were but because He sees daddy living that life then He will too. Eventually He will begin to hook up with other guys and be riddled with diseases and will eventually die right in front of you and spend eternity with me.
3. Your daughter will never know true happiness and look for a father figure as well she will become pregnant by three different men have all these children and no one to take care of them. This cycle will continue until she takes her own life.
Dustin if you don’t finish this, what was written will happen!!! Don’t play games with me. I own your soul. I own your heart. and there is no God that can help you!!! You will never be free of me. I will destroy you and your entire family.
I have will have no sympathy and I will utterly wreak every part of your life. You will die and see God and God will reject you and you will spend eternity with me in Hell!!! Ps: I already have your uncle, your mother and if you follow me I will have you and your entire family.
See you Later,