Letter to myself:

Hi,

I am a 28 year old guy from Kenya. I have been struggling with lust, porn and masturbation for so many years. I used to be sexually active when I was about 4 years old and so when my “sex mate” moved, I found myself masturbating. My most painful moment is remembering how our babysitter would make me and my sisters remove our clothes and touch each other. I remember having sex with my younger sister and it really makes me feel horrible because I took away her virginity. I didn’t know it was wrong to masturbate until I heard someone mention that it was when I was 14.

I have not had sex for long but masturbation was the challenge. I slowly found myself getting into porn. Started with soft porn in movies and magazines that belonged to my sister. I then borrowed her phone and started looking for it when I was about 18.

When I joined the university, I had access to the internet so I would download porn and watch on my phone. Now I can afford my own internet. I have watched a lot of porn and it is starting to bore me. I need the internet since my work involves research but sometimes I find myself on www.xvideos.com.

I recently found myself going for evening walks to check out ladies’ boobs and asses. There are times I touched their breasts and ass as I passed. I don’t do it these days but I really long to seduce a lady and just have sex.

I am engaged but we have not had sex just made out once. I am not a cheat but I am desperately longing to have sex. I have been looking at pictures of some of my Facebook friends and masturbating using them.

I am sometimes tempted to leave my relationship since I feel unworthy. I don’t want to hurt my girl but I am losing control.

Letter from my sex addict:

Letter to myself:

Dear Me,

I know it has been an crazy journey for you but God has been good. Remember when you almost committed suicide because you wanted out but God didn’t let you? Remember that you are not alone in this journey. You have support from the Men of Valor program and now xxxchurch.com