Questions

I have been sexually abused when I was a kid and since then I’ve started masturbating, few years thereafter I started watching porn, have been trying to stop since 6 months ago when I realized how much I hurt my soul yet my personal best was about 10 days, reading the other answers I get the idea that I need an accountable person (or something like that) yet I don’t have anyone who could help me except God.Possible activity could be taking a walk and making music but sometimes I just go mad and can’t think of anything else, I think I have a big high-road in my head. What can I do?

I find myself encountering the same problem over and over. I put X3 watch on my computer, and then stay strong for a good amount of time. Sometimes I’ll go weeks, even months at a time without falling back into the same sexual immorality that has been bothering me for so long. However, there always seems to be a fall back. I can go on streaks of not sitting down at the computer or masturbating, but eventually I do. I feel like the world continually tugs on me, trying to force me into its mold of being tempted by the sexual images that are basically everywhere. I know we are fallen creatures, there are just times where I feel hopeless. How do I make my streak consistent, permanent?

Is masturbation wrong? I believe that it is because it makes the mind flood with images and other people you might know. In the bible it says that looking at girl lustfully is a sin, so shouldn’t it be wrong even if thinking about your future wife? Because you have to be thinking about some girl or what they look like.