Questions

Hi

I am wondering if you have any information on the connection between childhood sexual abuse and pornography. As a young girl I was abuse for 4 years by my father, and I feel extremely tainted by this experience. I am fortunate it never eventuated into the actual sex act but still damaging.

So now I have been married for five years, my relationship with my husband has not really been effected, I think it is more on my own personal level. I have had to take the steps of installing x3 on the laptop because at times I succumb to watching porn. I did this on our wedding anniversary to show him that I am committed to him and to make this not a part of my life anymore.

Have you any advice how to share the effects of this with my husband. And also maybe some information on this. So that I can continue in my recovery, often I feel that my experience led me into my problem today.

thanks for your help
Kerry

I was raised in a Lutheran setting, neither totally committed or eager to learn more in church, as religion never turned me on, though I was born again at a later age, in a Non Denominational church. I love God!
My childhood up to womanhood was never really filled with pornography. It was the bars, drugs, and many other bad choices that lead me into this world I’m not so happy with.
I have a pattern with men; alcohol, drugs, porn, or all at the same time, which is my world now. I feel violated, or still that of a child, when it comes to porn. This feeling could be well known as “In the closet”.
I want out of the relationship I’m in now, BAD, cause my man is all about this world. He was raised on an island in Alaska. He tells me that they have nothing better to do there but sit around and do All The Above (welcome to Colorado).
As a matter of fact, I met him when I was married. It was he and I’s perversion that destroyed what “shoulda” been.
I’m looking for answers to keep my mind cleaner. Be it a study or prayer, I really need to get outta this world I’m in. I want to be a Missionary like you can’t believe. But here I am…
Any ideas?
Heather
God Bless

My grandson lives with me and he had an online porn problem. How can I find out if he’s using my computer to go on these sites???

He says he isn’t but……………

Thanks,
Mary