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When I was 6 years old I was raped by someone close to me, I started masterbating at a very young age I would say at around 7, or 8. My dad passed away soon after and since then the problem has only escalated, I had gone to watching porn every day. I grew up in Church have known God all my life, but the time I had a real encounter with him was when I was 17, when I told my parents about my raping, but that’s all they know. With my encounter I had stopped for some time and though it is not nearly as bad, it still comes around every once in a while I’ll say the longest I’ve gone without masterbating is a month or so, watching porn perhaps longer. But I’m now 20 and developing a ministry, something I have so much potential in but this is holding me back, cuz I always feel so dirty, so unworthy, and to add to the problem there are certain feelings that come about that are unnatural, repulsive, and completely against the nature God intended us to have. Where do I go on from here? I have an accountability friend but it’s becoming out of control.

I was wondering what to do in the heat of the moment when you really feel like you need to masturbate. When I’m turned on and I can’t stop myself I just don’t know what to do to stop myself.

I am trying to free myself from my addiction to porn and masturbating. I have read many of the questions and answers below, and almost all of the answers were ” tell someone ” well, I can’t tell anyone. My parents wouldn’t understand, the counselor at my school wouldn’t know how to take it, and there isn’t anyone else who I could talk to. My question is this: Is there a way to free myself from this, without telling anyone about it? If I confess to god, and walk in his path, am I able to get free from this?