Questions

I have two questions: I first got honest with my problem with porn about 5 years ago, and started making changes to my life to try and turn it around. I started with x3watch and an accountability partner, then I got a porn blocker, I read many books (like Every Man’s Battle), then I got rid of my internet altogether, I’ve gone for counselling, now I’m in a 12 step fellowship. This has all helped me drastically, I have much more hope, and I’ve had a few long periods of sexual sobriety. My issue is that my addiction is good at finding “go arounds”, for example, when I got rid of the internet, I started acting out to TV, when I got rid of TV, I started acting out at work (at great personal risk… YIKES!). So it’s almost better for me to have access to the internet so I don’t act out in more risky or twisted ways. What are your thoughts on this? Can someone stay sober if they have access to pornography? My second question deals with service. In my 12 step fellowship, this is something that is mentioned a lot as something that helps people stay sober. One thing I feel passionate about it protecting children from pornography. Access is so easy, and something like that would not fly if it were for other addictive substances like alcohol or cigarettes. Do you know of any groups that are promoting government action on this issue? And, more abstractly, do you think someone who is still acting out ought to be be involved in service, or should they focus completely on trying to stay sober first? Sooo, that was actually four questions. Thanks for your work on this stuff by the way, it was x3church that got me first started on the road to recovery.

I need help with my porn addiction it has made my marriage go south and me and my sex life is not like it used to be. I really want to kick this thing so that when i see my wife nude she will be able to turn me on. I think the porn has numbed me from my wifes beauty cause i only get turned on when i see porn and go to the gym i dont even go to the gym anymore. I also get turned on when i’m in public with my wife and not looking at her. I really only want to get turned on by my wife and be able to enjoy that time with her. I need major help I dont know where to start and I am a member of a good church and in a couple cell group with my wife and i have talked one on one with my cell leader which helped i just need more help. I really want to have the hots for my wife again and be able to get turned on by her and i think it’s my porn addiction that I need to knock out of my life. I do love my wife and she loves me very much.

I have been watching porn for several years now. Lately I have started watching more and more homosexual porn, and it is an addiction that I am struggling to quit. I do not think I am gay. Will God forgive me? What if I go through with some of my urges? And what can I do to stop?